what a Beautiful Name.
Lamb that was slain
caron xu jiahui
bethesda bedok-tampines church; Youth Church
gongshang.ahs.vjc
NUS Nursing
"For i have plans for you,"
declares the Lord,
"plans to prosper you
and not to harm you,
plans to give you a hope and a future."
-Jeremiah 28
grace that blows all fear away.
now unto the Lamb
who sits on the throne
be glory and honour and praise
all of creation resounds with a song
worship and praise Him the Lord of lords.
i am in wonder.
oh how you work everthing out sometimes.
slowly showing things that come into picture,
and even when everything seems so blur
and uncertain,
you still hold everything together.
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast.
It is not self-seeking, it is not rude.
Love keeps no record of wrongs.
It always trusts, always hopes,
always perseveres.
Love never fails.
how your word aptly describes Love.
in a world today that uses 'love' so so loosely.
i've realised that if you can't show and express it,
or am unable to take responsibility of it,
of this word "love",
don't use it.
frivolously.
what selfish lives we live sometimes.
caring and being concerned about our problems,
we forget that the world is a much bigger place.
and that Lord,
you look down upon this earth,
and i wonder how you feel.
had that feeling once,
in GP class in yr 1. felt totally lk crying when i heard Ms Lim talking about how lang has changed in the media, and yader yader. exciting GP stuff.
and i jus felt a great sense of grief.
like,
oh man. what on earth is happening now?
and the sadness and helplessness i felt sitting in the classroom just overwhelmed me.
and it has been a while since i've felt that. that tremendous weight that rests upon my heart. on and off.
break my heart from what breaks yours
open up my eyes to the things i see
show me how to love like you have loved me.
how one can feel so much.
all that goes on on the inside.
say to wisdom, "you're my sister."
and to understanding,
'you're my nearest kin.'
and i need you more than ever lord jesus.
as i enter into this new phase.
of surrendering everything to you,
and falling in love with you once again.
and loving others.
yes. doubts do come,
but im trying my very best to lay them down at the cross.
where grace and suffering met.
and trusting you with all my heart.
mind and soul.
and thank you.
i thank God for putting smiles on peoples' faces,
for laughter and sniffs that alternate btw conversations,
for words and silence that are world's apart
and yet, mean so much sometimes.
for time.
for giving us life. to live and to love.
haha.
im hungry. but it will be qt insane and fattenning to the max for me.
help me to do my best in sch.
to have your joy in sch.
to love everyone i meet, especially those tt are harder to love.
to love with the love of Jesus.
shepherd of my soul
i give you full control
wherever you may lead i will follow
i have made a choice to listen for your voice
wherever you may lead i will go.
be it in a quiet pasture
or by a gentle stream
the shepherd of my soul is by my side
should i face a mighty mountain
or a valley dark and deep
the shepherd of my soul is by my side.
Labels: loving you jesus
holy Lord.
you are holy.
Jesus Christ is the LORD.
Labels: beholding your beauty
Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way
Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way
I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me
Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other
let me lay down in this field
hope the days and clouds
turn into something as they pass by.
i don't where
i don't know how
i don't why
but your love can make these things better
warrior.
fight on.
maybe cause we're all broken inside.
but You make me whole.
haha.
Labels: keep my heart strong
what are you doing with your life?
i like the dark.
with some light in it.
all i wanna do is find my way back into love.
is it so hard for me to love you?
be real to me now
that's all i'm asking
be real somehow
more than anything
i'll try to lay down my sword
put away the doubt and
love a little more.
i've been making signals with sticks
and odd-ends and bits
still there's no sign of a flame.
how?
Labels: comatose. let me wake to you.
Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now,
let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete
in You.
Labels: so i look to you
these pictures say a thousand things.
and all the memories that come along with it.
i thank God for everyone of them.
stand by everything you've done
stand by the promises you've made
when all the world is swept away
i'll run into Your open arms
i love You
more than life.
10 facts about me:
1# i am not indon-chinese. i am chinese and half-peranakan.
2# i am not in tennis or from some sports cca.
3# i am not britney spears.
4# caron means the french of karen (according to my dad) and is the short form for catherine. but i dont see myself carrying off that name so haha. caron it shall be:)
5# i am in nursing. and yes, it's a relatively new course.i wanted to join medicine but couldn't get in. but God has plans for me. plans far greater than what i can think.
6# i can't speak malay but i'm going to learn!! yay((:
7# i love pokka dots and checkered stuff. which apparently someone thinks its very old. (makes a face)
8# i am learning not to be an IT noob(: big smile.
9# the library shall be my new hang out place.
10# uhh. i love the East. always and forever. namely Bedok-Tampines. shopping rocks here. so cheap!! 5 dollar shirts anyone?
and den again,
school is starting.
agreed with floo tt maybe its just sch blues. tt i don't want to mix around much, and being so antisocial. lk faster want to leave aftr class. or just appreciating being by myself. i think solitude is cool. but no.
You didnt call me to leave a life of solitude.
but to preach good tidings to the poor
to heal the brokenhearted
to proclaim liberty to the captives
and the opening of prison to those who are bound
to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord
and the day of vengeance of our God.
to comfort all who mourn
to console all who mourn in Zion
to give them beauty for ashes
the oil of joy for mourning
the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness.
isa61:-3a
so take me as you find me
all my fears and failures
fill my life again.
DESERT SONG Words and Music by Brooke Fraser
VERSE 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
VERSE 2:
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
VERSE 3:
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand
BRIDGE:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
VERSE 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve received I will sow
so so nostalgic.
its really been ages since i've last come online.
and now i've a new pink lappie-toshiba. and its proudly named by darryl to be
marshmellow! (after the many names he tried. im a demanding customer;)
went looking through facebook looking at photos.
saw past nice ones, unglam ones.
and i love this so!
and
oh my.
it seemed only like yst but no!
its lk a yr ago. 4,5 mths ago?
seems like life is taking a new turn.
and for the better.
really scares me how 8 mths just flew past like tt.
and im starting sch tmr.
reporting to sch at ten in the morn and having first aid lecture.
and having a 20 mcq test on wed.
oh my.
caron the mugger is back.
but now with more punch.
somehow, i feel scared.
scared of leaving the comfortable environment i've been in.
namely church, cell, bccsc.
pondering about how and what i've learnt during these 8 mth-break?
i would say its indescribable.
the great friends ive made.
new friends.
new kids.
new relationships.
im wishing i could put everyone in scc up here.
missing the kids so so much.
jacinta's going to pass me the cd soon.
times spent talking on the phone. to few close and lovely ppl.
times sent sitting in the morn at tungling. worshipping. talking to my dearestbuddy.
times spent with the besties.
times spent with my exercise buddy.
times spent with my dearest cell group-BASIC LIFE. all the funny and laughing moments. special mention to dearest dearest xin.
times spent with the ah pei tt is always tired. but does wonders with the lyrics i write and makes them such beautiful songs.
times spent with ORANGE. who always does really funny but i love her things.
times spent with You.
You my lord.
i can never ever express how much you taught me. how much you cared and the extent of everything that u did for me during this season of my life.
all the turmoil and disappointments. joys and laughter. mad moments tt somehow are so incredible becos its the way u made me. times where u just sat by me simply offering me your presence.
thinking of all these moments make me want to cry.
no it's not about being emo.
its not about reminiscing and dreaming again of those moments. or feeling sad that you've lost something or could have done something better.
it s just thinking about how Jesus has redefined the word : life.
making everything come into perfect sense.
even when i don't understand what's going on.
i do have regrets.
i do have a thousand and one lists of "should-haves".
moving up to a new level of worship.
new level of going in. going in. going in.
and going out.
you lord jesus. make my world less scary.
you make me wanna be brave.
the way it always was.
is never good enough.
but if you believe in me,
that changes everything.
losing friends.
and making new ones.
and some that always just stay by your side no matter what.
tired.
new lease of life.
i love you lord.
you are walking on water.
you are calling me after.
you are standing beside me now
lifts me from shame
yak.
grace that blows all fear away
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